My name is Nicole Queen, I grew up in coastal Louisiana until I was about 8 years old. I then moved with my family to a small town south of Dallas Texas. My family attended a fundamental baptist church which built a strong foundation of religion inside of me.
My parents were not very religious, they considered themeselves free thinkers, they believe in God but like most American people they don't really live their lives for God. My grand parents were more religious and instilled in me a strong religious foundation.
Later I became an event photographer in Dallas and most of my work was at night clubs. My job was very similar to that of a paparazzi, taking pictures of celebrities, athletes, and other famous people while they attend parties. It was a really crazy life style, having to be at parties, doing everything at night time and sleeping most of the day. Not a peaceful lifestyle at all.
I felt a lot of emptiness living this kind of life, being surrounded by people who are greedy. I was always looking for peace, looking for a purpose, people were always telling me that I had an awesome life but I realized that I was surrounded by people who don't care about anything important, they don't even know what's going on outside of their bubble.
During those years working as an event photographer I was always feeling an urge for God inside of me. I remember how I was always trying to figure out what I was looking for. I had nightmares where I am searching for something that I can't find. I did know some Muslim people who were not very religious, I was exposed to Islam a little bit from friends who didn't drink, friends that were a bit different, I would ask them how come you don't want to go here or there, and they would asnwer that they don't hang out at such places because they are Muslim.